Well, I feel much better today. When I was still working full time several years back I’d get headaches every evening that I recognize now as low-level migraines. I think the cause is a combination of stress, fragrance, and general sinus problems. I can handle one of those things at a time, but not all three. I’ve recently realized I clench my teeth all the time, so I’ll probably get a mouth guard thingy at Wal-Mart to at least prevent it while I sleep. I really need to learn how to relax. My body tells me how to treat her, if I’ll just heed her advice, and right now she’s saying I need to have more fun. Hard to do without money, but my heart is open to opportunity.
One opportunity is the Red Dirt Book Festival, happening next weekend right over there, in the next town. As a wannabe writer I usually approach events like this as work so I put a lot of vague pressure on myself, which is silly because I don’t have a book to sell. This time I’ll go with no expectations. If I feel like leaving after ten minutes I will. If I feel like talking to people I will. My goal will be to have fun and only that.
I have a lot of housekeeping that needs to be done since I was sick, plus I have a lot of writing to do, and I have to pay bills and go to the store…I can feel my jaw start to clench just thinking about it. When I worry about everything I need to do, it gets done…but when I don’t worry, it still gets done. My body is telling me to choose the second option today.