Graduation

Well, you know I was broken up about not going to my bonus daughter’s graduation. I know now I made the right decision. Like all moms, I feel I should always support my children no matter what, but the fact is sometimes I can’t be there. I have to be all right with that, and so do they. If I go on about how guilty I feel, they’ll absorb that. If I make it to some of their things and their dad makes it to the others and that’s just the way it is, they will still feel supported.

I don’t think Zariah was as broken up as I was about me not being there. I sent along a gift only from me, a blank journal symbolizing her new stage in life, and I wrote her a letter to go with it. She’s a woman now, officially. Graduated and 18 with a baby. Maybe I’ll get used to it someday.

Disjointed and crappy

I feel disjointed an crappy today, so that will also be the style of my post.
  • My step-daughter graduates high school this evening. I decided to stay home, after much anguish and stress, because of the extreme probability of massive fragrance exposure. Me, fragranced out, wrangling three kids in a packed gymnasium for 3+ hours…I finally admitted it just wasn’t going to work. I’ve already been exposed so much this week that it’s built up and my tolerance would be nil if I were to go tonight. I bought her a special gift to show I care since I can’t be there, and I’ll write a letter telling her how proud I am.
  • I finished updating the synopsis for Black Veil Angel, and now I’m waiting for my beta readers to get back with me before I start the final polish on that. During the lull I’ll crit Allie’s vampire mailman novel. I expect to have it done over the weekend.
  • I’ve lost ten pounds now. It’s slow, but I’m settling into healthier eating patterns.
  • Lots of cosmic activity going on in my external world, with things breaking and tornadoes and enlightening coincidences. Sometimes when these turbulent times pass I come out with a deeper knowledge of myself…and sometimes I just feel like I’ve been beaten. Too soon to tell which will be the case here.
  • This is the kids’ last day of school.
  • Sunday is the finale of Lost. ZOMG LOST