March 7, 2013 | Posted in: Life
BVA has been proofread by a reader with fresh-eyes. Hopefully this will be the day I finalize it and get the ball rolling on the peripherals, like the front and back matter, and make some good progress on the pesky cover. Lofty goals for a single day, especially when I have two DVDs of Downton Abbey waiting, not to mention much housekeeping.
At least I don’t have Castleville to distract me anymore. It’s felt like housekeeping for a long while, And I finally got the nerve to block it. I thought I would miss it, but when it pops into my head it’s a relief to be able to dismiss it and move to something else. So much of this modern Internet-centered life is habit, and I’ve found my attention span leaving me. I have trouble reading a book or focusing on a home project long enough to get it done. How am I supposed to build back into writing if I can’t think about it for more than ten minutes?
The attention span isn’t the only symptom, though. It’s also lazy thinking. I’m used to taking in other people’s creative ideas now, and I have to remember what it’s like to call up my own new ideas. Working at the library is helping a lot with that, and I wonder if I would even be considering a re-entry into writing if it weren’t for the stimulation I’ve found there. The atmosphere nurtures open discussion of problems from all level of employees, giving me the opportunity to practice thinking of creative solutions. And looking at all those book covers has prodded my sleeping writer, the dreamer who five years ago knew she would one day see her own book on those shelves.
I think this time my approach to the business side of writing will be different. Shoot, it already has been. I’m trying new things that I wouldn’t before for fear of hurting my career. But trying something new and failing doesn’t hurt a career, stagnation does. Quitting does. Fear does.
But we all know this.
This time it’s been a slow build, going at my own pace and trusting that I’ll be at the right place at the right time for the path that is right for me.
Fantasy author. Oklahoman, wife, mother. Anti-fragrance. Pro-naps.