I’ve stared at this blinking cursor a long time, so I guess I’ll just start. I do have things to say, but I think I addled my brain with all the nothing I’ve been doing.
It’s been a week since I turned in my manuscript. During that time I’ve basked in the glow of satisfaction, and also have identified some missed opportunities with the story. I could beat myself up about them, but I know those opportunities would never have become apparent if I hadn’t let it go. Having been through this process before, I know there’s always something I could have done better. In fact, I’m pretty sure it’s that way with most writers, not just me, so I don’t worry about it too much. I did what I did and now the book has to stand up tall, or fall over like a drunk girl on a slippery barstool. (Those days are long behind me.)
Anyway, it’s done for now.
I’ve really enjoyed my break from writing. So much, in fact, that the first few days I started to worry I was enjoying it a little too much. Maybe I wouldn’t want to start a new project, or maybe I’m out of ideas, or…whatever. But by Friday I was feeling that familiar pull to the computer, and then over the weekend little random ideas started pinging my brain, and last night I even thought about brushing off an old middle-grade book I started a few Nanowrimos ago.
I’m not ready to dive into anything just yet, but at least the desire is still there. The blinking cursor no longer mocks me. That’s nice.